Church of All Good Things: A Memoir

A raw, fearless memoir about surviving family trauma, religious shame, addiction, and loss—and finding healing on the other side.

Raised as the youngest child in a large, devout Mormon family where appearances often mattered more than truth, Patricia Noelle learned early how to bury pain and protect family secrets. As a teenager, she faced a life-altering situation and was pressured into an impossible decision—one that forced her to live with a truth she could not speak aloud for decades. What followed was a life shaped by silence: fractured identity, addiction, destructive relationships, repeated loss, and the weight of unspoken grief. Behind the surface of a life that looked “perfect” was a story she was never allowed to tell.

But buried truth does not stay buried forever. The Church of All Good Things traces Noelle’s circuitous journey through trauma, faith, and emotional inheritance—and the difficult process of reclaiming her voice, finding her identity, and realizing her self-worth. This is not just a story of trauma; it is a story of awakening. Through deep inner work and healing rituals with psychedelics in the rainforests of Costa Rica, Patricia begins to confront what was lost, what was hidden, and what it takes to break cycles that span generations.

Compelling, courageous, and ultimately redemptive, this is a story for anyone who has ever questioned the narratives they were given—and wondered whether it is possible to begin again.